I miss my friend.

Dear Sarah,

It’s been 8 months and 5 days since the universe took you away.

Not a day goes past that I don’t miss you or find something I need to share with you.

I wrote ‘gonna sleep’ to my friend Nicci the other night and it reminded me of all those times you said ‘gonna pass out’ while we were chatting on FB.

The radio played Bohemian Rhapsody in the car the other day and it made me think of you, like it always does, and it made me cry. Not the best thing while driving.

Anyway, it’s your birthday today. You would have been 26.

I miss you.

I will always miss you.

I love you.


It’s Monday. Again.


It’s Monday here, nearly lunchtime. The sky is blue (for the most part), the sun is shining but it was VERY windy last night then it rained buckets. Parts of New Zealand are covered in SNOW this morning, which reminds us once again that winter is definitely on its way and we need to get some firewood pronto.

On Sunday afternoon my wife asked me if I could make her some stitch markers. Apparently no matter how many stitch markers a knitter has, they will always need more. She knows I can do stuff with beads and wire so I got her to choose some beads & got to work.


stitchmarkersThe photo is a bit blurry because phone cameras don’t like close ups. I actually made a 7th one to use the tiny  bit of tiger wire I had left. Soooo going to buy more tiger wire on payday and make more stitch markers!!

Today in a suburb of Auckland named Papakura (nowhere near a beach) a seal is on the loose (and on Twitter!).


It occured to me yesterday it’s been 3 months since Sarah died. Still wanting to share things with her every single day, like this photo I found this morning. She would have loved the Coldplay GoT thing too, I just know it.


Aaaaand yesterday this happened! Feeling a bit starstruck. I mean it’s one thing when a famous person you follow favourites your tweet, but getting a reply? So much better!

jmgAnd last night I wrote 6 whole A5 pages of a new story I woke up thinking about on Sunday morning so yay me!

Have a lovely end of weekend!

8 weeks today and it still fucking hurts.

It’s been 8 weeks. It’ll be 2 months on Friday.

8 weeks since Sarah died.

8 weeks since I lost a dear friend I care so much about and talked to every day.

Every day there is something I have the urge to share with her and then it hurts when I remember I can’t.

Every day I miss her.

I’m used to missing people. My whole family lives on the other side of the world, I’ve haven’t seen my dad since I was last in France in 2009. I haven’t seen my mum since she visited us last in October 2013. Yes they live far away and it sucks but I know they’re only a phone call (or an email) away.

This is different.

Never before had I lost someone I was so close to and it just SUCKS, you know?

So you guys get some of the stuff I would share with her…

Like this utterly delicious photo of Timothy Olyphant at the Justified Finale Red Carpet Event…


This funny thing I found on Facebook.


This photo full of epicness…


This selfie of Emma and I with Jason Woodward at the Hurricanes v Rebels game in Wellington on 27th March.

Selfie with Jason

The fact that my baby girl found a book that she loves so much she did nothing but read it (and its sequel) for the whole second week of the school holidays… (it’s on WattPad and she was reading it on her phone and her tablet, depending on which was charged)

yuyu reading

The hugs I gave her when the book got to a scene that made her cry. Twice. The second book is the story in the guy’s POV and she cried at the same point of the story.


And that a (hot) builder FINALLY came to fix the deck that Emma went through back in January.


Whoever built the deck originally was a cowboy, it was a death trap!



new deck

 And I’m super pissed that she missed our 2nd wedding anniversary on Monday last week.


I’ll leave you with this photo of 2 of my 3 E’s. Big E and Wife E.

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